I don’t normally fall to my knees But before you, I did By your bedside, I did Too late, I did. I don’t talk to Him anymore But to you I will I said my goodbyes and well wishes. I asked you to look over those surrounding me. I tried to be brave and selfless, so I told you not…
I’m driving you to your house And there’s a song on the radio I’ve come to call yours. Every word perfectly fits in my breaking heart for you. So many nights driving alone Singing through tears as I think of you. And I sing along now as if you’re supposed to know that every line is meant for you. But…
Spring was always my favorite season The warm sunshine on my face after so many dark and cold days The vibrant greens, pinks, and yellows instead of that stark, blank white. But then I met you in August And now I have summer nights walking the boardwalk Kisses in the sunsets Feeling light with the music playing on the radio…
I’m not sleeping well anymore I’m plunging into any other reality I can get my hands on And isolating myself from the one I’m in I wake up sad and irritated Like I’ve already dragged myself through hours of social interactions I cried all night but I’m one thread away from coming undone again. -August 2018
I know what I should be doing And that makes it even worse that I’m not. Everyone around me wants to help But I’m the one who has to put in the work. It’s easier said than done Feels like a battle that can’t be won. The frustration wears me down every time Not even sure if the view will…
I’m sorry this is how your life story ends You cried easily this year When she showed you her wedding dress you cried And when i showed you this book, the tears fell again. The clouds were nice enough to cry the day after you passed. I wonder if there’s a part of you that’s happy When you see the…
I keep writing of things I should be keeping to myself Thoughts that should never make their way to paper. I can’t help myself, I need some relief. I can’t let issues and people go. I’m trying to work on myself But it’s just so hard to do on your own. I need more help than I’m willing to admit….
I’m fighting with you Instead of leaning in My head’s a mess I can’t keep this steering wheel straight I’m forgetting that I have you in the passenger side I just need someone to hold me And i know you need it too. I’m angry at myself for not reaching you sooner I saw you on the road You eyes…
My head hurts all the time And sometimes there’s this dull shoving at my forehead. I can’t seem to gain control of my emotions Every morning I wonder what dark room I’ll step into next I don’t wake up on the wrong side of the bed I’ve rolled off the cliff and hit the hardwood floor. I told the Doctor…
A moment alone and my thoughts lead me straight to you And my heart breaks over and over again How can anyone else can handle this pain in their chest? I want to write about you But i’ve already cried too much today I think about you And it’s like i’m reliving it all over again Cant even write the…