If you don’t want me then make a clean break. Straighten out the truth and send me on my way. If you can say it out loud then I promise I won’t beg. But I can’t let go unless you tell me so. -Sept 2019
I don’t miss you. I miss having fantasies and the shimmering hope for love. Sometimes I get mixed up. -Sept 2019
I know I was your angel and that’s why I won’t fight you if you need to make me your devil now. -Sept 2019
I want to hurt you if only to prove That you’ve finally let me in close enough to mean something to you. -Sept 2019
My heart only breaks because I know I’m breaking yours and I’m so sorry about that. -2019
You weren’t close to family by blood but you found brothers young who still surround you to this day. You pledged to brotherhood in college and choose a career where you stand in a line full of brothers in blue. You’re the most resourceful and willful man I know. You could let me be your family too.
I know you might think that if he was out of the picture that you and I might still be in frame. But even without him we’d still be shattered glass on the floor. I’m sorry that shards of your heart are there too because only picture memories are left of me and you. -Sept 2019
This reunion isn’t as I imagined it would be. I knew I’d changed over the past 3 years but I forgot that you could too. I’ve built fantasies from past memories But all I have to show for it is a disappointing reality. -Sept 2019
I imagine myself at a table with your friends. Where you’ve finally let me in to be approved by the family built with time and loyalty. -Oct 2019
I take it all so personally Can’t seem to let the wrong words go I just want to stay in bed all day Shut the blinds and close out the world Call in sick to work Think about texting my selfish ex. I’m just having one of those days where I’m grinding my teeth just to make it through. …