alone – Debatably Dateable

Love Falls

I hope it works out for you

And that she’s the love of your life.

But if there’s a chance for me

Just know I’m waiting on your call.

If love falls through

I’ll be there to catch you.

-Nov 2020

Fire Away

Well I’m getting on without you, baby

Even though I still miss you, baby

Men call me beautiful

and I call them back.

But no matter how I try

I’m still thinking of you

at the end of the day.

Hoping you’ll give us another shot.

More Than Just Me

He holds me tight

and I wonder if he’ll love me past tonight.

I fill my head with nonsense

Wishing we could be

More than just a you and a me.

-June 2020

oh, How You Kiss Me

I like how freely you express yourself.

I wish I could do the same

to show you how good I feel when I’m with you.

Do you kiss every girl like that?

Would you kiss me like this if you didn’t feel anything?

Kiss me absent mindedly again

and we can both pretend not to notice.

-June 2020

I Need You Tonight

It’s hard for me to admit it

but I need your help

I know you’d take care of me

and I’d be safe in your arms.

I know you wouldn’t mind

a few salty tears soaking in your shirt.

Would you lay with me darling?

I can’t face the world on my own today.

-July 2020

The Wagon

I’m 2 days sober

and I say it’s all over.

Then you text me

and I fall off the wagon again.

Back under the influence

of the games you play with my heart.

My cheeks are numb

with generous gulps of alcohol

and my mind is saturated

with thoughts of you.

– Dec 2019

WISHING WELLS

I have to come to terms

with that fact that

you’ll never own up

to all that you put me through.

You deflect it enough that I wonder

if I’m losing my mind again with you.

I’m trying to learn not to place the blame

in dark places or wishing wells.

Sometimes they’re one in the same

but I’m done wishing on you.

Never Yours

My door was never open to you.

But all these years

you’ve camped out in the front yard.

I’m not taking you back

because I never called you mine.

But I’ll meet you outside my door.

-Sept 2019

Hanging On To Nothing

If you don’t want me

then make a clean break.

Straighten out the truth

and send me on my way.

If you can say it out loud

then I promise I won’t beg.

But I can’t let go

unless you tell me so.

-Sept 2019

I Miss the Concept of You

I don’t miss you.

I miss having fantasies

and the shimmering hope for love.

Sometimes I get mixed up.

-Sept 2019