Oh I wish I could leave you alone
instead of staring at you through my phone.
I drive through your town
Just to feel close to you again.
I wish there was a sign
To know if you’ll ever be mine
Oh I wish I could leave you alone
instead of staring at you through my phone.
I drive through your town
Just to feel close to you again.
I wish there was a sign
To know if you’ll ever be mine
I wear your t shirt to bed.
Let all the memories of you
Fill my head.
I dream up fantasies of what we could be
We’re probably not even right for each other
but aren’t you dying to try?
Don’t you want to see if we can reach the sky?
I’m driving down the road
that would bring me to your house
if I reached the end
But I turn right
like I have the last few months
Wishing I could forget you
and the way to your house.
_Nov 2020
You drive my mind crazy with questions about us
Do you like me?
Should we date?
What are we doing?
Am I trying too hard?
Should I let that comment slide?
When are you going to see me again?
Is this love?
No.
You’re scared of good things happening
because they always get ripped from you
and you have a devil in your ear telling you
you don’t deserve it. Remind me to kiss the woman
who brought you into this world with deaf ears.
Even though I understand it, the distance still hurts.
scared of vulnerability, scared of abandonment.
I’m scared too, but either we try or say we never knew.
Love is always risky, that doesn’t mean it won’t pay off.
The snow continues to fall, while I’m inside
hurting like Hell because you haven’t called.
I’m wondering if you ever really cared at all.
I can finally stop playing the fool
who thought we would always be together.
I’ve been through enough cold weather
and heart ache.
He said “I think you just need fingers
ran through your soul
like you’d be doing to my hair.”
I said, “that’s not fair.
Don’t say something you might not mean
It’s one thing to make me needy between the legs
but even worse to make me needy between the lungs.”
It was the lack of effort
that told me all I needed to know.
I was in this all alone.
You had given up a long time ago.
You knew exactly what to say to make my heart smile
but it was the words you never said
that made my heart break