I’m 2 days sober and I say it’s all over. Then you text me and I fall off the wagon again. Back under the influence of the games you play with my heart. My cheeks are numb with generous gulps of alcohol and my mind is saturated with thoughts of you. – Dec 2019
I have to come to terms with that fact that you’ll never own up to all that you put me through. You deflect it enough that I wonder if I’m losing my mind again with you. I’m trying to learn not to place the blame in dark places or wishing wells. Sometimes they’re one in the same but I’m done…
My door was never open to you. But all these years you’ve camped out in the front yard. I’m not taking you back because I never called you mine. But I’ll meet you outside my door. -Sept 2019
If you don’t want me then make a clean break. Straighten out the truth and send me on my way. If you can say it out loud then I promise I won’t beg. But I can’t let go unless you tell me so. -Sept 2019
I don’t miss you. I miss having fantasies and the shimmering hope for love. Sometimes I get mixed up. -Sept 2019
I want to hurt you if only to prove That you’ve finally let me in close enough to mean something to you. -Sept 2019
I take it all so personally Can’t seem to let the wrong words go I just want to stay in bed all day Shut the blinds and close out the world Call in sick to work Think about texting my selfish ex. I’m just having one of those days where I’m grinding my teeth just to make it through. …
I loved you and I said it, out loud. My stupid mouth can’t seem to keep quiet. I had to deal with the consequences of telling you how I feel. I guess no one that good is real. -2011
People ask me all the time if I miss you. I tell them, I’m fine. I tell them I don’t need you. I tell them I never really did love you anyway. I lie every time because I can’t seem to get you off my mind.