25 before 25 list

It’s time to see how I did on my list of 25 before 25.

 

1. Go on a caribbean trip

6 month check in: I’ve finally booked a trip for February!

Totally lied lol, we ended up using that money to go to California instead!

 

2. Figure out how all this self hosting works (how can I find my view sessions?! lol)

6 month check in: It’s a work in progress.

It’s actually going well!! Last month, I reached my highest monthly view yet! I also became a member of a few affiliation programs and made $12 from Google Adsense, so slowly but surely I’m figuring it all out!

 

3. Breakeven on my self hosting investment

6 month check in: That is definitely not happening lol

One of the things I often discredit is that my books are actually products so the money I make there could be used to counter my self hosting costs. First year, I did not make money, but maybe I’ll breakeven this second year.

 

4. Sell 100 copies of my debut poetry collection Cracked Open in its first 6 months

6 month check in: haha definitely not… but I have made over $100 so I’ll take what I can get

Cracked Open is a year old and I am definitely not near 100 sold copies but I do have high hopes that Where I Ache will do much better than my first collection. Fingers crossed!!!

collections

 

5. Go hiking regularly in the warm weather

6 month check in: I didn’t get out much as I wanted it

I’m hopeful I can get back into hiking this Spring/Summer!

 

6. Advance my career

6 month check in: Still hoping to

I’m actually switching career paths! I’m very excited to be heading in a new, happier direction.

 

7. Write 125 new poems

6 month check in: I’m at about 50 so I’ll probably only get to 100

In addition to this 50, I also wrote over 50 exclusively for Where I Ache! But I fell short of 125 by a few since I’ve been using my older poems on the blog.

 

8. Create some healthy eating habits

6 month check in: Some weeks I do, some weeks I don’t

I don’t have the self discipline for this… lol

 

9. Be more active with my dog

6 month check in: Definitely taking my dog on more walks

Had to slow down with the winter weather but I’m planning some doggie park adventures!

 

10. Go kayaking

6 month check in: Didn’t get to it this summer

I think I’ll try something else this summer, leave some suggestions in the comments!

 

11. Go to a concert

6 month check in: I didn’t this summer but who knows with the holidays

I went to a Post Malone concert on New Year’s Eve with my boyfriend!!

 

12. Publish 200 new posts

6 month check in: I post 3 times a week and with 52 weeks in year, I’ll be about 50 short. (should have done some better math before making this goal lol)

Still fell short but I actually have switched my posts from 10 times a month to 12-13 monthly so I am posting more content!

 

13. Dye my hair a new color

6 month check in: Indeed I did! It’s blonde now

Check out my different hair colors through the years!

 

14. Start organizing for my next poetry collection

6 month check in: You know it! I have over a 100 poems ready for this one.

WHERE I  ACHE COMING OUT JUNE 10TH!!!!!! Guys I am soooo excited!! I’m so happy that this collection is longer than the first and features a lot more diverse content. I’m also so so happy that I got to work with my boyfriend for this project!! Grab your copy of Where I Ache to see his amazing illustrations!!!

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15. Surprise my boyfriend (no more details incase he reads this)

6 month check in: I surprised him with a dinner cruise for our 1 year anniversary!

This reminds me that I need to do something nice for my boyfriend! He puts up with a lot from me haha

 

16. Grow Blog and Twitter following immensely (hard to put a number on it right now)

6 month check in: I’ve been working hard at this one!

From April 2018 to this April my blog gained 1,810 followers

From April 2018 to this April my twitter gained 2,595 followers

 

17. Get another tattoo

6 month check in: I’m not in a rush and I’m still thinking about what I might want

Since I’m changing career paths I need to be more financially conscious so this is on hold for a while.

 

18. Attend a sporting event

6 month check in: My boyfriend took me to a baseball game.

I also saw a college basketball game!

 

19. Have half of the finances needed to buy a house

6 month check in: I think I’ll reach this goal

Starting on a new career path is going to push me back a few years unfortunately.

 

20. Visit another state

6 month check in: I think I will be, still working out the details

Went to California with my boyfriend over the winter!!

 

21. Visit 20 new places

6 month check in: I’ve been to quite a few new restaurants and local attractions.

I think I’ve reached this one!

 

22. Go to the golf range more often

6 month check in: Nah didn’t happen

I’m not as interested in this goal this spring.

 

23. Go on a boat ride

6 month check in: You bet I did!

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24. Get stronger so I can start seeing my chiropractor less

6 month check in: I am seeing the doctor less

I haven’t seen my chiropractor at all this year and I’ve only had a few shoulder flare ups!

 

25. Have some adventures this summer – fun and carefree!

6 month check in: I definitely got to do some new things and see some new places!

Summer is around the corner yet again, I can’t wait to get a tan and spend time with my family!! Lots of celebrations coming!

 

Thank you for seeing the good in me I couldn’t see myself

For so many years I’ve felt like I was hard to love

But darling, you make it look so easy.

You do so much for me without batting an eye

And I wonder if I would be able to do the same.

You walk through Hell like it’s the route

to take home every night.

 

-Sept 2018 +

Check in on my 25 before 25 List

It’s six months till I’ll be 25 so I figured I’d check in on my list of 25 before 25.

 

1. Go on a caribbean trip

I’ve finally booked a trip for February!

 

2. Figure out how all this self hosting works (how can I find my view sessions?! lol)

It’s a work in progress.

 

3. Breakeven on my self hosting investment

That is definitely not happening lol

 

4. Sell 100 copies of my debut poetry collection Cracked Open in its first 6 months

haha definitely not… but I have made over $100 so I’ll take what I can get

 

5. Go hiking regularly in the warm weather

I didn’t get out much as I wanted it

 

6. Advance my career

Still hoping to

 

7. Write 125 new poems

I’m at about 50 so I’ll probably only get to 100

 

8. Create some healthy eating habits

Some weeks I do, some weeks I don’t

 

9. Be more active with my dog

Definitely taking my dog on more walks

 

10. Go kayaking

Didn’t get to it this summer

 

11. Go to a concert

I didn’t this summer but who knows with the holidays

 

12. Publish 200 new posts

I post 3 times a week and with 52 weeks in year, I’ll be about 50 short. (should have done some better math before making this goal lol)

 

13. Dye my hair a new color

Indeed I did! It’s blonde now

 

14. Start organizing for my next poetry collection

You know it! I have over a 100 poems ready for this one.

 

15. Surprise my boyfriend (no more details incase he reads this)

I surprised him with a dinner cruise for our 1 year anniversary!

 

16. Grow Blog and Twitter following immensely (hard to put a number on it right now)

I’ve been working hard at this one!

 

17. Get another tattoo

I’m not in a rush and I’m still thinking about what I might want

 

18. Attend a sporting event

My boyfriend took me to a baseball game.

 

19. Have half of the finances needed to buy a house

I think I’ll reach this goal

 

20. Visit another state

I think I will be, still working out the details

 

21. Visit 20 new places

I’ve been to quite a few new restaurants and local attractions.

 

22. Go to the golf range more often

Nah didn’t happen

 

23. Go on a boat ride

You bet I did!

 

24. Get stronger so I can start seeing my chiropractor less

I am seeing the doctor less

 

25. Have some adventures this summer – fun and carefree!

I definitely got to do some new things and see some new places!

 

So I’ve got 10 done already and 4 that I didn’t get the chance to. I think I’ll get another 5 in the next few months but the rest we’ll just have to wait and see.

With Every Part of me, I Love You

I have a hard time taking ownership of my love

Always leaving off the “I”s of my “Love You”s.

I hope I’m saying enough

To show you my love and appreciation

With my lips and fingertips.

My legs and heart.

Soul and tongue.

Mind and eyes.

With every part of me.

 

-September 2018+

 

The Me I Am Because of You

I’m not the man I used to be

My heart tumbled out my mouth

When I gave you my first and only “I love you”.

Never felt so compelled to have someone be mine

You’re the magic i didn’t know I needed in my life.

I’ve never been in love like this before

And I won’t be the fool to ever lose you  

The past has come and gone,

my future stands right before me

 

-May 2018

Then to Now

I can’t believe

That the months have gone by

And the passion still rages

Like our first week together.

The electric jitters have been replaced

With knowing stares and secret smiles.

Second date or 522nd your hand

still falls on my lap in the car.

So many firsts have been shared

But my love for you still feels brand new

Still sad when I leave your place

Because I can never spend enough time with you

I love you’s used to get stuck in the back of my throat

Now they’re tumbling out of my mouth like salmon swimming upstream.

I thought these feelings might have settled by now

But this beating in my chest is and always will be for you.

 

-June

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Addicted

Lately I’ve been saying I’m addicted to you
But I’m not sure that’s true
Yes i love spending my time with you
And i can’t go an hour without you walking across the forefront of my mind
So casual and cool like it’s right where you belong.
Yes, My hands always find your warm skin whenever you’re nearby.
We fit together like the perfect two.
And my heart misses its home a few hours after we part.
So now you can see I’m obviously not addicted to you.