The rain gently falls
and I wonder if it helps lull you to sleep.
I remember things you told me
from 3 years ago
But I’m wondering
if you’re still the same person now.
The thunder cracks and I realize
I’m wrong about you again
Tag: hurt
Ashamed
I’m ashamed of the love I wasted on you
Can’t believe I put up with
your dishonesty and idle love
for so long.
Why didn’t I leave
when my head first told me to?
-Jan 2020
Laundry
I’m fragile in ways you might not want me to be
And you don’t like when I air out your dirty laundry
But baby, I wasn’t the one who created this mess
So don’t blame me for the way I act out now.
-May 2018
The Aftermath
It’s like I’m always waiting for the other shoe to drop
Waiting for you to break my heart again
Feeling like I’m paranoid but I cant stop asking questions
they always lead to answers I don’t like.
What are you doing to me?
Do you know the precious love you hold in your hands
Or are you carelessly letting it slip through your fingers
-May 2018
Hey Gorgeous
You don’t say Hey Gorgeous to me
You don’t act like you used to
Starting to take me for granted
And acting like you could live without me.
Baby, this is all on you
Not another thing I could do
To make you see how good you got it with me
Go on, say Hey Gorgeous to yet another.
-May 2018
Write You Out
I see it everywhere.
Books, movies, and my next door neighbor
The story of us and all the reasons
that you were too self absorbed to ever care for me.
I’m hoping if I write about you and us enough
that I can finally let you go.
-June 2019
The Head Aches
My head hurts all the time
And sometimes there’s this dull
shoving at my forehead.
I can’t seem to gain control of my emotions
Every morning I wonder what dark room I’ll step into next
I don’t wake up on the wrong side of the bed
I’ve rolled off the cliff and hit the hardwood floor.
I told the Doctor but he couldn’t hear me
Over his preformed opinions.
Or maybe I’m just too stubborn to listen today
My Love
I wish my love could heal you baby
take away every hurt
kiss away the pain
silence the worries
I wish my love was enough to save you
I wish my love could protect you from this cruel world
I wish my love could break your every fall
My love for you is so strong
and yet I feel so powerless
-Nov 2017
Forest Fire
You talk about her and it lights a forest fire of destruction in my heart
my immediate reaction is to mention him so you might feel a lick of the pain I’m in.
It doesn’t make it any better when you speak ill of her
with so much emotion in your voice, i can still feel her claws deep in you
Am I that deep in you yet?
Will you ever be able to forget me?
Can I replace her in your heart?