I feel.
You think.
I lean closer.
You pull away.
I want more.
You are stuck in the comfort.
I am shoving
You forward.
There will never be an us because
we won’t work.
It will always be a You and an I.
I feel.
You think.
I lean closer.
You pull away.
I want more.
You are stuck in the comfort.
I am shoving
You forward.
There will never be an us because
we won’t work.
It will always be a You and an I.
We are not a love story
and we are not a lesson.
We were just two people wasting time.
Comfortable in the in -between
hiding from our truths.
You didn’t love me
and I didn’t want to love you
I want to talk about how great of a girlfriend I would be.
That sounds soo conceited and I feel insanely weird for making this post but if I have to embarrass myself just for one person to have a good take away from this article then I’ll do it. And its good to be nice to yourself sometimes. So for making such a statement perhaps you’re wondering how her highness has come to this conclusion?
I’m considerate. I let you know when I’m busy so you’re not left hanging. A simple “busy now, text you when I can” message can keep a person from going crazy. I don’t like playing games. I wont wait 40 minutes to text you back just because you took 20. If that type of forwardness makes you uncomfortable then you’re not the guy for me. I don’t want you to go out of your way for me, I try to plan dates that are near both of us and I don’t take it for granted that you might pay for the date.
I can give you space and encourage you to be your own person. It’s a bit mesmerizing for me when someone talks about things they’re passionate about. Their eyes smile, you know their heart is happy and I encourage them to explore that happiness. We don’t need to be together always, you are you and I am me. Your differences are new and exciting to me, so let’s celebrate them.
I’m open minded and understanding, which makes me supportive. If there’s anything I learned about life so far, it’s that people are complicated. Life is hard and you don’t always get it right. You don’t have to be perfect, in fact, I hope you’re not. I try not to judge difficult moments in your life and I’m very appreciative when you trust me enough to share those darker times.
I’ll be a great girlfriend because I loved the wrong ones so well. I have a big heart and if you take the time to climb over these guarding walls, you’d see there’s this big, empty room with your name on the front door calling you home. If I could try so hard to make it work with the guy who didn’t treat me well enough then imagine how well it could work when you are treating me right.
Now, I need you all to repeat after me and say “I’d be a really good girlfriend/boyfriend/ significant other/caring partner/friend.” You listen well or you know how to take action. You can always lighten the mood or you value loyalty. Don’t doubt yourself, don’t make yourself small or apologetic, instead say you’re good enough and actually believe it for once.
You are a good person, a good friend, and you are important to those around you. Tomorrow doesn’t change any of that.
Please write in the comments and tell me a few of your good qualities!
Even though I understand it, the distance still hurts.
scared of vulnerability, scared of abandonment.
I’m scared too, but either we try or say we never knew.
Love is always risky, that doesn’t mean it won’t pay off.
Everyone tells me I should walk away
says you’ve got too much going on to handle.
I don’t know why that doesn’t send me running
but I do know I have a heart big enough to hold you inside.
He said “I think you just need fingers
ran through your soul
like you’d be doing to my hair.”
I said, “that’s not fair.
Don’t say something you might not mean
It’s one thing to make me needy between the legs
but even worse to make me needy between the lungs.”
I’d hold your hand
trace my finger along the crook of your elbow
to the curve of your shoulder
the hills and valley of your chest
the slope of your neck
to the tussles of your soft, cinnamon hair.
Maybe one day I’ll finally get good at getting over you
But until then I’ll have another drink while I listen to another song that reminds me of you
I’ll drive by your house again and read through old phone conversations
Oh cause one day you wont cross my mind
But until then I’m still at this bar, stuck on you
I imagine hearing your name and not giving it a second thought
There will be no floods of memories that have to be fought
No ache in my heart nor tears in my eyes
You’ll be gone and I’ll have moved on
But until then I’m still at this bar, stuck on you.
Demi Lovato’s Cry Baby from 2017 is a song of a girl who is hard to break but her heart breaks eventually. Listen here
NeYo’s Mad from 2008 is a heated argument that would hopefully be resolved before going to bed. Listen here
Alicia Keys‘ Fallin from 2001 is a song of torment from loving someone to not knowing if you can stay when they cause you pain. Listen here
Rihanna’s Love on the Brain from 2016 is a song of fighting for love and suffering through the pain in order to be with someone. Listen here
Beyonce’s Jealous from 2013 is her pain caused by her man’s cheating and going out for a night of revenge. Listen here
Little Big Town’s Girl Crush from 2014 is a clever song of crushing on a girl because she has the man and wanting to be her; replace her. Listen here
Patsy Cline’s She’s Got You from 1962 is a heartbreaker of a song where she has all the material possessions of a lost relationship while he’s found a new relationship. I love Patsy Cline, check out the rest of her work! Listen here
Nelly’s Over and Over featuring Tim McGraw from 2004 replays the ending of a relationship and the jealousy of not having her anymore. Listen here
I’m driving down the road that leads to your house
But I turn left because someone else
Now lays on my side of the bed.
I wish you both the best
but I can’t help myself from
Wishing I could see your face again
And Wishing we could head back to your place
And wishing you found home in my arms.
-Nov 2020