I have a tendency to run from arms that are stretched open
for me. A tendency to think when people take
an interest in me, they only mean to pry me open with an oyster knife and leave
me empty. Your past has taught you that anyone can leave if they want to try.
So you don’t pry and you don’t ask why, but you always stay
I love you.
You love me.
But it is not enough.
I miss you all the time
Can never get you off my mind
I’d come back to you in a heartbeat
If you ever opened your arms again.
And he’s calling my phone again
but I can’t tell him that I wish
He was you instead.
-Nov 2020
I know I won’t ever get to call you home
But can I still come over?
Can we just pretend for the night
that we’re meant to be more
than just lovers?
-Nov 2020
We had so much fun at that bonfire on the beach, he and I.
The air in my nose was stronger than a salmon swimming upstream.
But if you stayed close enough to the growling fire
that smoky haze would cover you better than a fur blanket.
So I stayed close, tucked into him
dreaming of honey.
Against the black curtain of the sky
It was hard to tell the difference between
the fading flickers of a hot, red amber from a fire
versus his taillights fading down the road.
And then you realize it can’t always be seven o’clock on a summer evening.
We don’t have to think about tomorrow
Or our past
Just stay here with me
And feel my arms around you
Just take what you need in this moment
-May 2020
It’s always the case for me
Always wish to discover
what we could be.
But I’ll be around
Even if you let me down.
-June 2020
I imagine falling apart in your arms
because I trust you to hold the pieces
as I put myself back together again.
-June 2020
Your snoring lulls me to sleep after a hard day
cradling me sweetly in the night.
And your immovable love gives me strength
like a constant steady flow of a river to my heart.
Your laughter breaths life back into me, babe
Fills my lungs so full, I think my feet might leave the ground.
Your tender love wraps around me like armor.
There’s nothing I can’t do with you next to me.
You’re such an important part of me
Your love is in the air I breath.
It radiates off the skin I touch.
I feel your love in every kiss
Every touch
Every word.
And I hear it today in, “I do”.
-August 22, 2020
It’s so easy to fall back in love with you
Would you tell me if I was making a mistake
Try to save me from another heartbreak?
You want attention from every direction.
If that’s the case, I can handle the rejection.
-June 2018
