It’s still dark out and I didn’t sleep too well
So I’m awake and all emotional over you
Angry that I’m feeling so much when you never felt enough
I have to let this severed piece bleed out and finally die.
Because I’ve been cutting it
only to restitch and rebandage the hurt.
So I’ll take my half of the blame
If you finally quit playing this game
Because I don’t know if I’ll survive
another time with you calling out my name.
The lack of security in your heart
keeps your mind on guard for the graveyard shift.
You’ve seen an unkind world close up, right in your own kitchen.
But even the most beautiful flowers are planted in dark soil
so please close your eyes and sleep tonight.
The snow continues to fall, while I’m inside
hurting like Hell because you haven’t called.
I’m wondering if you ever really cared at all.
I can finally stop playing the fool
who thought we would always be together.
I’ve been through enough cold weather
and heart ache.
He said “I think you just need fingers
ran through your soul
like you’d be doing to my hair.”
I said, “that’s not fair.
Don’t say something you might not mean
It’s one thing to make me needy between the legs
but even worse to make me needy between the lungs.”
I’m sleeping just fine
while I’m probably on your mind
still keeping you up.
And you’re mad at yourself
for giving a damn
now that I’m gone.
And you’re mad at yourself
for not giving enough of a damn
back when I would have given you
my whole world
if that’s what you wanted.
But now I don’t care about what you want
You can tell it all to the ghost of mine
that still haunts when you can’t sleep.
I’m not asking you to be my shinning knight
but you should treat me better and start acting right.
I don’t need saving, in fact I do just fine on my own
So if you want me in your life then you need to grow up.
I could be good for you if you let me
but you’re too scared I’ll end up being your weakness.
Maybe one day I’ll finally get good at getting over you
But until then I’ll have another drink while I listen to another song that reminds me of you
I’ll drive by your house again and read through old phone conversations
Oh cause one day you wont cross my mind
But until then I’m still at this bar, stuck on you
I imagine hearing your name and not giving it a second thought
There will be no floods of memories that have to be fought
No ache in my heart nor tears in my eyes
You’ll be gone and I’ll have moved on
But until then I’m still at this bar, stuck on you.
There is a hint of you in every poem of mine
the faintest honey peach wine still on my tongue from each line.
It was never my intent to put you there, you show up uninvited.
Neither of us had planned to stick around but Winter has gone
And come again and I’m still here sipping on you tucked into desire’s cozy fire.
When I was young I dreamed of reaching the moon
and I dreamed of saving the world.
I dreamed of becoming the best me I could be
but chasing dreams is harder than it seems
because disappointment and doubt appear to be the only things in route.
But I’m strong and I’ll survive
and only Love can keep the heart alive.
I’m driving down the road that leads to your house
But I turn left because someone else
Now lays on my side of the bed.
I wish you both the best
but I can’t help myself from
Wishing I could see your face again
And Wishing we could head back to your place
And wishing you found home in my arms.