I could love you if you let me
but you keep me outside your heart
my fingertips stroke at the pulse of your vulnerability
No, I guess you’re keeping your heart safe for someone else
My thoughts race for hours stirring up all the ways I don’t measure up
I’d drown in self doubt if Sleep didn’t take mercy on me.
Your heart beats for her but will it bleed?
No flower petal or wishing star is willing to take that bet with me.
See loving you would be bad for my health
My heart would sacrifice me in order to make room for you
And without a home in yours, I grow weak and insecure
Starving for your love would be the death of me.
So this is self preservation baby
I’ve bled too much for you
It’s my life or yours,
and I choose Mine.