We’ve started something so pure and good here
I’m scared I’ll ruin it
The same way I usually do with all the others before you
I’m so scared of being vulnerable
Of getting hurt
Of opening up to you only to be disgarded
So I’ll push you away before Id let you in
Find some reason that this can’t work out
Because I’m so scared of what would happen if it is everything I’ve hoped for
If you’re right for me and I’m good to you
I’m scared to love you because I don’t know if I’d be strong enough to keep you.
And losing you would hurt far worse than never having the chance to love you.
-Aug 2017
This is so true in so many ways. I, I’ll – always a case of low expectations before things begin coming from our own self-doubts. Mostly, residing to love.
Yeah we tell ourselves it’s better to have low expectations so that way we can’t get hurt. We usually end up hurting ourselves anyway.
Authors of our own destruction be the cliché that seems to fit.
i was musing about my mountain of past relationships just this morning. Then I fondly thought about the one I’m in now, and have been in for almost two decades. Why has it lasted? It’s lasted because I had all the dud relationships. I learned from them. I felt how I felt, and made new choices. I realized I didn’t like that pain at all, so what would I like better, and how would I find myself in this new place?
1) Take new better informed chance(s)
2) Equip myself with newer more enlightened tools
3) Be willing to fail forward
Haha mountain, I love it. It’s so important to reflect and be aware of what type of person your ending up with and how the relationship is being conducted in order to make changes in the future. That is absolutely amazing advice!!! Thank you so much for sharing, you’ve touched me today
Girl…we touched each other’s psyche today. We lifted Monday!
Yes!! Absolutely!!
Oh my… I understand this …
I do not know what your preferred genre of music is, but I’ll just leave the link to it instead of writing my response. If you can’t stand country music, then at least read the words and see what I mean. https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=-27y6vjx9PY
I love country music and that song!!! I’m definitely one full of doubt and need to start thinking “what if you were made for me”
🙂
Doubt is not bad, but it needs to be kept in check and used appropriately (which can be challenging).
Beautifully written so true. The defense mechanism
Thank you so much!!!