You’re scared of good things happening
because they always get ripped from you
and you have a devil in your ear telling you
you don’t deserve it. Remind me to kiss the woman
who brought you into this world with deaf ears.
Tag: alone
Scared Love
Even though I understand it, the distance still hurts.
scared of vulnerability, scared of abandonment.
I’m scared too, but either we try or say we never knew.
Love is always risky, that doesn’t mean it won’t pay off.
cold
The snow continues to fall, while I’m inside
hurting like Hell because you haven’t called.
I’m wondering if you ever really cared at all.
I can finally stop playing the fool
who thought we would always be together.
I’ve been through enough cold weather
and heart ache.
Between the Lungs
He said “I think you just need fingers
ran through your soul
like you’d be doing to my hair.”
I said, “that’s not fair.
Don’t say something you might not mean
It’s one thing to make me needy between the legs
but even worse to make me needy between the lungs.”
Needed to Know
It was the lack of effort
that told me all I needed to know.
I was in this all alone.
You had given up a long time ago.
Unsaid
You knew exactly what to say to make my heart smile
but it was the words you never said
that made my heart break
Even the Moon has Wreckage
I’m always testing the ones who love me
even though the number is few.
Sweet words are so foreign
I don’t trust them to be true.
Like the moon,
showing the world pretty bright lights
and hiding a part of itself never to be seen.
Letting people in is so hard when you know
They are so likely to go
after rubbernecking at the wreckage.
And bruises fade faster if no one keeps pressing into them.
Love Falls
I hope it works out for you
And that she’s the love of your life.
But if there’s a chance for me
Just know I’m waiting on your call.
If love falls through
I’ll be there to catch you.
-Nov 2020
Fire Away
Well I’m getting on without you, baby
Even though I still miss you, baby
Men call me beautiful
and I call them back.
But no matter how I try
I’m still thinking of you
at the end of the day.
Hoping you’ll give us another shot.
More Than Just Me
He holds me tight
and I wonder if he’ll love me past tonight.
I fill my head with nonsense
Wishing we could be
More than just a you and a me.
-June 2020