And we’re never on the same page
Always pushing while ones pulling
Always at the border of each other’s lives
Refusing to step in or away
It’s pointless torture
And nothing good could come of it.
-May 2020
Tag: Stubborn
Hopeless
I hate myself for coming back to you every time
And I hate you for being the one I fall before.
I hate you for being so difficult
For not appreciating my worth
For leaving me
To fend for myself
in this hopeless dating world.
I hate myself for being your fool again.
Pride
You never ask questions
Because of your pride
Or you just don’t care enough.
I think that is the only question
that needs answering.
Being with you
I like the stubble on your jaw
and your broken one-too-many-times nose.
I like how good you are at telling stories.
I like how your arms feel wrapped around me
and when you pull me into your chest.
I like that you’re ticklish.
I like having you on my mind
I like that I get to call you mine.
-Sept 2019
Clear Message
You left me on read again
You’re messing with my head again.
I don’t know why I keep going back to you.
Why I keep putting myself through this
when it’s so clear that you hardly care.
-Oct 2019
I Wonder If I Cross Your Mind
I wonder if your sister ever got married.
I wonder what you taste like.
I wonder if your friend likes his job out of state.
I wonder how strong your arms
would feel wrapped around me.
I wonder if you wonder about me.
I wonder if you remember the details of my life
like I do yours.
I wonder how deep your love
could fill my chest.
I wish I didn’t have to wonder at all.
-Sept 2019
Sweet Memories
Kiss me
I want to forget
that you’re no good for me.
I know I should let
the memories of you stay dead
But they taste so sweet
on my lips
just like your kiss.
-Oct 2019
Truly Through
Just when I think we’re finally done
and truly through
You reveal a part of yourself just for me.
You say something that makes me wonder
if we haven’t put each other through enough yet.
-Oct 2019
A Familiar Pain
You’re familiar
and safe from vulnerability
You give me all your time
yet I’m still left feeling
like I don’t measure up somehow.
With you there’s no risk
but somehow with you
I still end up hurt.
-Oct 2019
WISHING WELLS
I have to come to terms
with that fact that
you’ll never own up
to all that you put me through.
You deflect it enough that I wonder
if I’m losing my mind again with you.
I’m trying to learn not to place the blame
in dark places or wishing wells.
Sometimes they’re one in the same
but I’m done wishing on you.